So full...

Today is one of those completely bi-polar days.

I went from sad, to doing really ok with life, to sad again, to just...I don't even know the words...completely full of God's love and grace and blessings.

The Let It Rain service tonight was everything I love about our church.  For one thing, I just love Jesus.  Period.  I love too, that I feel like my church is home.  Like, I live there.  Like I'm alive there.  Like it's ok that I just bawled my eyes out for 2 hours (and it was a good ugly cry too), and nobody is going to think I'm a freak for it.

I was reminded of some really important things tonight.  I do relate to God as my Father - as a child. I do envision myself in His presence as a little girl - with her daddy - and that is SO comforting.  The word tonight was to remember how much Love God has for me...that I make Him laugh - that I truly just crack Him up.

Just ponder that for a moment...that is so beautiful.  I mean - if you haven't ever seen the painting called 'Jesus Laughing' - that is beautiful too...but...God...laughing over ME.  Isn't that just almost to awe-inspiring to even take in?

God knows my heartbreak.  He knows my frustration.  He knows my struggles, annoyances, faults...and He loves me through every single one.

I walked through church tonight...greeting good friends, noting those I need to remember to pray for more, thankful for all the hugs, and 'hi's, and warm smiles from people who have walked some of this walk with me.

I love God.  I love the church family He placed me in.  I love that He gives us venues like tonight, where we can pray for those who need it and worship Him with abandon and just BE together in one place loving our God.

I feel so full.  And so weightless, as so many burdens were lifted off.

God is beautiful, and I love being His.