Let it Rain

Let it rain.
Let it rain.
Open the floodgates of heaven...

Today is perfect - a day given in match for my heart.  I spent another night, heart broken, after yet another interaction with someone I thought knew me better.  Someone I had given wide range to - knowing they have had a lot on their plate in the last year or more. Someone I have prayed for in heavy measure, because so many things have happened that I didn't know how I would handle in her place.



Only to be accused of being a 'shit stirrer', 'full of shit', 'shit' in general, and an 'internet troll' because I dared to post anything other than agreement.  Ironically, at the end of her litany of comments, she said EXACTLY what I had started out with saying.  But that is irrelevant.  And moot.

The action is clear...forgiveness is the only option available...and yet...probably never openness again, because really.  This is not a person who is 'safe' with those in relationship.  What breaks my heart most about that, is I had just so hoped that would not be the case.

And so, as I sat here last night, I asked God for rain today...which there was already a chance of, so that's no miracle in and of itself.  But as I sit here, coffee steaming, rain drops falling, birds tweeting outside....I just thank God for His grace, His love, His gifts...

Tonight is the 'Let it Rain' worship service at our church.  We had been on the fence about going, as there is a parent-teacher conference tonight that must be attended first.

I don't know...we'll see.

I'm just so tired. Worship...the healing that goes on in that time could be exactly what I need right now.  But I admit, the idea of staying home, going to bed early, is so tempting.  I am just so incredibly tired of it all.