Enjoying a rare, small moment of alone time...this is something that NEVER happens except on rare occasions when I run to the store by myself.  Sad when that feels like a getaway!

But the house is quiet.  Everybody left this morning so I could get some sleep, but alas, it's bright out and my body says - HEY...THERE'S SUNSHINE!  NO SLEEP IN SUNSHINE!

So I am awake. Slight headache that things it wants to be a migraine is picking at the back of my eye, but I'm hoping a hot shower and some caffiene will remedy that.

I was just laying in bed ponder fractals.

A fractal is defined as "a geometrical or physical structure having an irregular orfragmented shape at all scales of measurement between agreatest and smallest scale such that certain mathematical orphysical properties of the structure, as the perimeter of a curve orthe flow rate in a porous medium, behave as if the dimensions ofthe structure (fractal dimensions)  are greater than the spatialdimensions."


Right, so we're all clear on that.

;-)

Here is what brought it to mind...two books I read some time back described us in terms of fractals.  The Shack, which some loved, others panned, had one particular section where the character of the Holy Spirit showed the main character what she was working on...it was a fractal.  The symbolism, of that, was that it was really US she is working on...each of us being a fractal.

Later, I read a story by Ted Dekker (can't recall the name at the moment) but the basis of the story was that for every decision laid out before the main character, he could see several possible outcomes based on different actions he could take.  For every action, the outcomes at the next step changed - it was this huge honeycomb of options..the path of the changes, too, were a fractal.

It occurs to me that each of us, at least those of us who have yielded our lives to God and his leading, are also quite fractal.  We are in a constant state of change and flux - whether we acknowledge it or not.  If you met me 3 years ago, I am not who I was then, and I am also not who I will be tomorrow, or in 3 years.   We all change, as the Spirit reveals more in us - or even in my hope, wipes out more of us and replaces it with Him!  

I can't see the 'me' God is designing.

I CAN see the me that knows that as long as I am always focused on him, as long as I truly take my shelter in the most high...I will dwell in the most amazing place imaginable.  MAN...I just want to take a little bit of that around with me EVERYWHERE...that amazing feeling...(And yes, I know, I CAN...it's just so hard when real life tries to smack it off of you!)  It's so much why I wish others who don't know Jesus could FEEL what I mean when I talk to them about Jesus.  

Because in Jesus, the fractal that is me, makes sense.  The zooming highs, the twists and turns, the ups and downs...they're all defined by one simple thing, and that is my heritage.  I am a child of God.  He designed my beautiful, fractal life...one layer at a time.