I'm sitting here this evening with a lovely fire roaring in the fireplace, and a generous glass of wine next to me. It's our first fire of the 'season', and actually our first in this house. We tried last year, but as we didn't know the chimney was capped, it set off a whole chain of events that left us without a bathroom for 2 months! Tonight's fire is beautiful, and it is so very peaceful right in this moment, I just wanted to stop and write about it.
If I stopped to think about the one down side of this evening, which is that my husband is presently dealing with a work problem downstairs, I can't even really be anything less than grateful for that. He is having such success at work, with a new opportunity beginning with him - that I can't even really be frustrated about it.
Because, you see, his work is one of the things I've prayed for hardest. I've prayed for help in our financial life, which has led to an incidental job for me, which has provided 'breathing room' each month. That breathing room was so needed, and I am just so very, very thankful for it.
I'm just sitting here tonight, a little overwhelmed, thinking...what did I do to deserve all of this? My family - every single one of them - is basically happy. Sure, we have that long-standing parental struggle with grades and clean rooms, but everything in our family - between all of us - is good. That is A LOT to say when you have 3 teens, a tween, and a 3-year-old! We have the normal friend/boyfriend/girlfriend drama, but...there's not a kid right now that I can honestly say I am WORRIED about. If you had any idea where we have come from as a family, that is INSANELY HUGE.
And I credit every single thing to prayer - to God's blessing on us - to humility and focus and putting our priorities where they should be.
God has blessed us with such AMAZING people...in every area of our lives...if I posted how I really feel about everybody, they'd all think I was this big, mushy freak. And shhhhh....deep down I actually am...because every one of them means so very much. I have intentionally hugged people outside of church, for no reason other than I wanted to. WHAT THE HECK, PEOPLE!??!
God's love is flowing through me, in me, around me...and it's SUCH a complete high....such an AMAZING love. I just never, ever want to stop feeling that.
Anyway...it's time to eat an amazing dinner prepared by my daughter, and settle in for a new episode of Grey's. Seriously.
God, I love you, and I thank you so very, very much for this life.
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