Insecurity.

For the last 3 1/2 weeks, I've been doing a job my husband quaintly describes as 'beneath me'.  Now - lest you think this is some high and mighty opinion on my part, I am of the opinion that any job that brings in money, offsets struggles we may be having, and eventually will let me work from home full time - well - that isn't beneath me.

BUT...the job is...well...it's something pretty much anyone with the ability to speak clearly and navigate a couple of computer systems quickly can do.  My college degree and job experience, in this position, is pretty much wasted.  SO from that perspective, it's beneath me.

The problem is, my drive to do everything right - to not screw up, and not 'break any rules'...means it doesn't matter whether this job is the easiest thing I've ever done, or the hardest.  I'm going to try to do my best no matter what I'm doing.

Col 3:23 - Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men,

Right.  So.  I have my first 'scored' call tonight.  That means, for the first time ever, I will have a trainer sitting next to me, unable to help me with anything, but grading how I do on the call.  That includes - saying everything right so we don't fail a shop call (they call to check that we respond to certain situations correctly, like ADA calls, cross sells, etc).  That includes knowing what to say when I end up making a guest wait for 10 minutes while I call the leads for an obscure answer.  That means knowing WHEN I can transfer somebody (and to whom) and when I cannot.  Doesn't sound like much...but it is.

Needless to say, I'm a little wound up about it.  And I sit here thinking...yeah...but I haven't even stopped to pray about it.  I mean - I've tossed a word up in passing...but I've not spent any focused prayer time on it.  And I KNOW that will help.  SO...I need to go do that!

(Wish me luck!)