It was such a mixed weekend. We had a great night on Friday, enjoying the Passover dinner at our church. It was an unusual night for us. My husband has a hard time being happy when there is an event with food at church that he is not involved in preparing.
Knowing the event was for over 800 people, and how much work goes into that preparation (and how sick I was all week leading up to the event), I can only thank God that on this occasion, we just enjoyed the night! We also took our 4-year-old, who did AMAZINGLY well, given the circumstances!
Saturday, my husband and I went out to celebrate our 9th year together. We won a gift certificate a month or so ago, and had intentionally saved it for this event. We spent the entire evening just meandering, doing what we wanted, and not worrying for a moment about the money, because the gift certificate handled it. I can't even tell you how RELAXING that was for me. I ALWAYS have the bank account in mind, and spending money without thought to the consequence is very difficult for me. But for Saturday night, I had what I wanted. I drank what I wanted. We went to the movie I wanted to see. It was AWESOME!
When we arrived back at our truck, after several hours of light snowfall, someone had drawn a heart on the window...it was perfect. It seems a little silly to say God was in all the details of that night - but He really was. The giftcard itself was a major blessing. The night, just refreshed our relationship which can get worn on in our day-to-day grind. There were just lots of little things that showed me God was in the details...all the way down to a chocolate dipped strawberry on my husband's dessert (which is pretty much my all-time favorite thing) and the snow looking like diamonds as we walked in it, just enjoying the company. It was a beautiful night.
Today...back to reality. We had a flat this morning (Hello - Thanks God that we got home safely last night, and didn't have to change a tire while out on our date!). At church, it was our week to volunteer in the infant room, and my husband ended up hurting his knee - badly. Then, we got some bad news regarding one of our kids - and it all just kind of added up to attack the happy cloud I had been floating on since our date ended.
I just remember thinking last night that I was so RELAXED....something I NEVER am. And then today...definitely not relaxed. To add to that I sat down to pay bills, and it looked like the bank account was NOT going to stretch...but it did.
I am going to pray for that relaxed feeling to come back and be more of my norm. It was SO nice...and I am so often the one to let all the little things in the day add up and bring me down. I don't want to be that. It's just no fun.
I can't NOT deal with the bad stuff....but I just want to live in the happy more, you know?
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