Argh. Oh yeah, and also Unnnnnnnnnghhhhhh....

The sheer ungratefulness of my attitude this evening has me astounded, mentally.

I had a good day, really.  I had lunch with my mom, did some shopping...and from that point, it went downhill.

We woke up early, and maybe that's part of the problem...lack of sleep, no nap, and my brood doing every possible thing they can in the exact opposite way it was asked of them.  My husband...on crutches, scheduled for an MRI Saturday, and with an eyeball that just apparently has decided sockets are for pussies.  No need to stay in one, really.

We keep tilting at the same windmills, always with the same result.

Tonight, I just need respite.  I want to go hide away, put on some worship music, and fine a calm, happy place with God.  But....I can't.  There has to be a responsible adult on duty, and tonight that's me.

I sit here, and berate myself mentally - how ungrateful I am - I have a house full of wonderful children.  Yes, they have their moments, but net net - they're good kids.  They CARE about the people around them.  Their decision making ability is shit, really.  REALLY.  But they are good, deep, well-meaning people.  They all love Jesus....all the way down to my baby.

At 4, while walking with her grandma this morning, Grandma bumped her into a wall, and my sweet baby said "It's ok Grandma, I've got God in my heart and He takes care of me."  Awwwww....the same baby who prayed just a week ago for Jesus to heal me when I had a tummy virus.  She is SUCH a sweety.

And yes, she's trying too.  As can be any newly 4-year-old child.

I think tomorrow we will head to the zoo...just her and me.  Maybe a movie later if we still have energy after looking at lions and tigers and bears (oh my!).

But for now, I'm just going to chill out, enjoy the last of my moscato, and count the blessings rather than the frustrations, because SOMEONE sure is making the frustrations the focus tonight.