Contemplation on a Quotation...

I am working at present, so we shall see how completing a blog post whilst making reservations for people works. Well, to be honest, *I* am on hold, but... I opened up facebook this morning to see a quote posted to my cousin's facebook wall. Now somehow, while my whole family was raised Christian, that segment of my family grew up in the Bible Belt, and somehow, grew up with a much more deep seated faith than my side of the family did. Thankfully, my God is patient, and didn't give up on me before I figured things out! The quote was this: "My memory is nearly gone, but I remember two things; That I am a great sinner; and that Christ is a great Savior." - John Newton I just sat here for a few moments and contemplated that seemingly simple statement. That I am a great sinner. At some point in my life, I thought - you know, I haven't really ever DONE anything. I mean - simple stuff - lying to my mom, sneaking out, yelling at her - but, you know, none of the big stuff. As an adult, I still even tend to think - you know - there's just not A LOT going on in the 'major sin' department, you know? But then the reality sinks in...sin is sin, period, and I am GREAT at that. I am. I mean, am I harming someone in how I sin most of the time? No. Not usually. But...it's still sin, and still something for which Jesus paid the price. And that's the opposite side...he's a GREAT savior. When I quit looking, He still patiently waited. When I go lukewarm in my faith, He waits. When I am all on fire and totally sold out, he isn't skeptical of me as I would be of someone else who behaved as I do. He just accepts me. He saves me no matter how petty or stupid MY sin may be. He took ALL OF THAT on His shoulders, and would have done so if it was JUST me, not all of humanity, that he was saving. On most days, my memory is sketchy at best. I mean really. Please don't ask me what I had for breakfast. (Although I could answer today because the answer is coffee, and lunch is too far away at the moment. The rumbling you may be hearing is my stomach complaining.) But I am a great sinner - whether big or small - I sin. Period, end of story. I have a GREAT need to be forgiven of those sins, and Jesus forgave me. Just as he forgives all who seek him and surrender THEIR lives to His great plan. I know, none of this is a giant news flash or anything...it's just what poked me in the brain as I looked at that quote this morning. I am a GREAT (awesome, exceptional, totally da bomb, over-achieving) sinner. I do it really, really well. I need to accept that about me, and not sweep 'little sins' under the rug. I have a GREAT savior. His love is amazing.