You just need to EVANGELIZE....!?!

Struggling today. I spent the day outside in the hot, muggy sun...selling....well...crap...to people at way discount prices. But really, that part was kind of fun. I got to hang out with my brother, whom I love despite the fact that he's a complete turd to me (a loving turd?). He spoiled my baby, and teased eldest a lot, and it was just fun hanging out with him. But... His mother-in-law. Grrr. She was there all day. When her off-hand remarks weren't annoying me, her actions were, and I just am having a hard time 'being Jesus' in the entire situation. The day before yesterday, we took a bunch of stuff over to my brother's house for the garage sale. We were setting everything out, and my brother made a comment, I don't even remember why, just said 'Yeah, I'm going to hell.' I told him not to joke about that, it's not funny, and his MIL, very matter-of-factly, just said "There's no such thing as hell. It was just invented to scare small children into behaving." ... ... ... ... ... yeah. And my desire was to verbally eviscerate her with everything *I* know to be true of God and hell and how UNPLEASANT a place it is. How it is NOT a joking matter, and very, very definitely IS real. But I know her. She is 70 years old. She is a feminist. She ended a 25+ year marriage because she was tired of being a wife. Her husband hadn't done anything wrong, per se - maybe just took the marriage for granted - but there was no infidelity, no abuse - nothing that by our society's standards JUSTIFIED ending the marriage. She was just tired of it. So...I admit I just don't THINK the same way she thinks. I'm not saying she's wrong in her approach to life...but just that - she's not going to accept anything *I* have to say because it doesn't fit in her paradigm. I just found myself HATING being in her presence. Everything she did today irritated me. And my mother caught me in the house for a minute, and said - I know it's hard. I know she is frustrating. But you just have to have patience and EVANGELIZE. I really hate that term. I get 'talk to people about God'. I get 'share what He has done in your life'. 'EVANGELIZE' makes me think of arrogant televangelists in white suits giving you the number to call in your donations. I know the REAL definition. But this person...her BREATHING sets me on edge. And I have to be nice AND try and be God with skin on to HER?!? Yeah. So I prayed a lot today, and I will again tonight. For the right words, for the right attitude, for the right opportunity. Because really - as much as my FLESH person wanted to just shout - 'GREAT - Well let me know how that works out for you when you discover Hell ISN'T just a fairy tale!!!'...that would be her sterotype for how Christians are. It would fit her paradigm where God does NOT love us. And THAT is not who I am meant to be.