At least the eggshells I walk on are cage-free?

That tremendous sigh of relief you may have heard today around 1 pm was me. I own it. I am so ready to kiss this school year goodbye. It has been...quite honestly...one of the most awful school years we've had. And we've had some crappy years, so that's saying something. One of our kids just basically quit this year, and trying to reignite that fire has been such a struggle for the last few months. The bad thing is, once the kids are a certain age, you can only encourage or threaten or nag so much...at the end of the day, they are the ones responsible for physically DOING the work and handing it in. If they won't do that...what do you do? At the same time, directing all hands toward one hole in boat left other kids adrift. This year it just felt like there is not enough of us to go around. I am also just at a crossroads where I need to decide what to do with my life. I need to spend some intensive time with God and just really figure out what I believe *HE* wants me to be doing - because there is SOMETHING - it just feels like it's just slightly beyond my grasp to figure out WHAT. I don't want to kiss being a stay at home mom goodbye - but I also need to earn some income to help out, and the two concepts are fairly opposite. C will start preschool in the fall - so it feels like it is good time to step back into the 'real world' , but at the same time, I am such a homebody I just love being in my own space *ALL* the time. Maybe that's part of what God is trying to change. As I am writing all of this, it all seems to be coming out much more negatively than I had intended it to, because really, where I am at right now is a place of relief. What's done with the school year is done. What's to come with my job is an entirely unwritten page. It should just be exciting - but I am one of those people who just always wants 'the plan' in place! (Maybe God's working on that too.) OH! And on another note, we now have a subscription for toilet paper. Seriously. It will be delivered every month. My life is the most exciting thing EVER!