It has been a challenging week or two. I was promoted to a new desk (yay!) and started training for that new desk (yay!) only to find out that the hours are slightly different than we were led to believe (boo!) and that will mean adding an additional work day and starting earlier on Sunday (boo!).
Overall, though - I like the new desk more. There are abilities we have there that we don't have otherwise, and we don't have to jump through some of the hoops we do on the other desk. SO - that's all good.
This week we started training, and it has been good overall. The downside is, half of our class is 'on the job trainers' who are only there to learn the desk so they can provide back-up, and work with new people coming to the desk out of the next training class. The problem is - the ojts DO NOT want to be there. They sit in class and chat with each other, they chat on their computers which we aren't supposed to do, they don't pay attention, and even fall asleep in class. Last night, two of the ojts got downright aggressively confrontational with our trainer. To her credit, the trainer did not allow it to flap her, she didn't allow the situation to escalate, and she handled herself PERFECTLY. I am in awe.
Because ol' fleshy? Wanted to tell the women being trouble-makers to sit down, shut up, and do the job they are being paid to do. I really struggled with it, because I am used to working in an environment where professionalism is just EXPECTED. Behaving in the manner these ladies were behaving would not only be unacceptable, it would have earned you a ticket out the door.
But - this is a different environment.
The job has a lot of potential for me in the future beyond the current function I am filling. With my background, it is not unlikely that I could stay at this company, in a professional role, once my youngest daughter starts school. As such, it's important to dress the part. Today, I went and got my hair done again - which was AMAZING, and got my nails done again, which also, is amazing. That is all tied in to 'looking the part' of the job I WANT to have some day - not the position I have already.
But it struck me...in my heart, I was offended that these women acted the way they did. I was judgmental about WHY they were acting the way they were. In my mind, they were spoiled and willful, disrespectful and unprofessional. But that still, small voice made me stop for a minute, and think. I don't know WHY they are the way they are. I do know one of the women had a pretty horrific life growing up, because she shared that with me one day on our lunch break. But the other woman - I don't have any way of knowing. I don't know what opportunities they may have had in their lives, but I can guess they probably haven't had the opportunities I have had. But really, God pointed out, all of that is irrelevant.
He loves them.
No matter what they do, or how they act, or how they look - He loves them. Every single day.
So, if I'm not just going to look the part of my Father's daughter, I have to love them too - no matter how wrong they may be in what they do.
And I now have a new role model for how to handle people who misbehave that way. And guess what? She happens to be a mother of 5 too! (Although, hers were all daughters! The drama!)
Thanks God, for the lessons of this week, and the love you have for EACH OF US!
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