Everybody is Somebody...

While waiting on the Hubs to come home tonight, I clicked on a local story about a bunch of marijuana that was siezed today.

At the bottom of the page, there was a local blotter report.  It's the type of thing that has been posted here as long as I can remember in the newspaper - a list of arrests.  My grandmother and mother used to read it religiously.  I was always worried that if I ever got arrested for ANYTHING - or divorced - they'd be the first to know via the newspaper.

But tonight, I just paged through these pictures.  The first woman I saw was noted for possession of methamphetamine.  You can tell from her photo - she is totally strung out.  On a whim, I facebook stalked her - only to find her cover picture is one of her with a young boy - maybe two years old.

It broke my heart.

I have never done meth, or any illegal drug for that matter, to know first-hand what it can do.  I have seen what it did to my husband's cousin.  He was a dancer on Broadway in NY...until meth tore his life apart.

I just can't imagine - this woman has a little boy - and I know the love I have for my kids.  I just can't even imagine that being my life - not being there to care for and support my children because I have an addiction that trumps ever other thing in my life.

My heart breaks for her, and her son, and her family.

I looked through the other pictures - and yes, there are some that are funny because there are face tattoos aplenty, and lots of goofy looks.  But the look in many of the eyes...so hopeless...

My heart goes out to these people.  Sure, I know they're criminals, and I know some of them would shoot you rather than give you the time of day.

But there's also a kid there who looks like he could be a model.

And a kid who probably just got caught being dumb with his friends.

And a girl who got in trouble for shoplifting.

They're all somebody's baby...and they have all (most likely) done something to substantially mess their lives up.

I prayed while looking through their photos, but I know this is going to hang with me for a long time.

Sad.  Merry Christmas. :-|