I am so tired tonight. I should have just gone to bed an hour or two ago...but my girlie is up, and so I find myself not wanting to go to bed. Tomorrow she goes back to her host family, and this will be the last 'free time' until her program is over at the end of May.
Had an about-face on that one. She felt led to sign up for another year - but it looks as though that won't be an option. They have apparently reevaluated how they're doing the program - raising the minimum age and only allowing it as a one year program, rather than the 2 years some students have done in the past. The group struggled with cohesiveness this year - pretty normal when you have ages ranging from 18-25. Kids just graduating from high school just can't have the same maturity level of kids who are 25, finished with college, and who have been out in the world for awhile. They just...struggled to relate to each other.
Granted, I hate to say it but my girlie may have been one of the few exceptions. She was sort of born 40. 30 at least.
Good to have her back though. We've spent lots of time doing things we love to do. After she finishes her laundry in the morning, we may go grab coffee and go to the pet store - another of our favorite things to do together. C got a fish for her birthday, and needs fish food, so I guess that's as good a reason as any.
We hit the zoo today - a gorgeous day for it. But - C being 4, naptime crept up on us and the last half hour or so was an increasing level of tantrum. By the time we got home we were ALL took a nap!
So I am struggling with what to do at this point. I get pressure from my family to push K harder to get into college. K tells me she still just doesn't feel ready to do that - that that's not where her heart is - and I don't want to force her. It's not like she's doing anything BAD with her time, you know? This has been a great year of growth for her, and Hubs and I both see it in the independence she has developed since September. But she has no idea what she wants to do...and that makes it a challenge to know how to guide her. My role has changed significantly - and I don't want her to have the experience I had. I don't want to push her so much that she hates whatever it is that I've pushed her to do.
I am believing for good things though - God's let me to a few signs good things are coming - and I BELIEVE that...I know he has something good for her - if she just searches for it herself!
Hard for me though - I am one who always wants the clear path laid out ahead of me, and an ETA for each step along the way!
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